Entry 8: Four Page Letter By: Lottie

 

May 16, 2012

Sitting in my dorm room waiting for Brooklyn to come so we can go eat. While sitting there my phone begins to buzzz buzzz it says you have a new message from PJ. I immediately thought, is this really who I think it is? So instead of me texting back right away I waited a lil bit because Brooklyn said she was downstairs and ready to go eat. We went to Cane’s down the street. As we were walking to the place I heard, “Lottie! Lottie!”. Brooklyn goes sis this dude is hollering at you do you know him or something?

I turn my head and guess who it was? PJ! I immediately got butterflies in my stomach as he was walking closer to me ! In my head I am thinking you sir have not changed ONE BIT. Your caramel skin against the sun still makes you glow the way you walk, and the long beautiful locs are the icing on the cake for me.  The whole time Brooklyn looked at me like um who is this? How do you know him? Where did he come from? O and does he have a twin brother? Before I could even respond he was right in front of us. 

My eyes just couldn't leave him! 

PJ: “What's up girl, I texted you earlier to let you know I was in town for a lil bit and I wanted to see you. So I am actually glad I saw you walking. I know we didn't end on the best of terms but time has passed and I just wanted to have a conversation with you before I leave town.”

Me: “Hey, I saw your text! I was actually going to call you after we got done eating. By the way this is one of my best friends Brooklyn. We were just about to go eat. Is it cool I call you when we are done and we can do whatever after that.”

PJ: Hey Brooklyn nice to meet you! That's fine, just promise me you will call when you are done?”

Me: PROMISE!

We finally made it to Cane’s, got our food and finally sat down. 

Brooklyn: OK SPILL THE BEANS ! 

Me: I met him over the summer! His parents know my parents really well and we have always known each other but never really met up and hung out or anything until this summer. We met up and we clicked immediately until I found out by text that he and his guy friends were playing a trick just to see if he could get me on his arm. I really liked him at the time and didn't think anything like that would take place. I was at his place. We were just watching a movie and eating popcorn. He got up went to the bathroom, his phone *buzz buzz* You have a new message from My Guys. “The preview said,'' So did you win the bet and get her to come over?” He came out of the bathroom I paused the movie and said what the fuck is this shit about? You got me fucked up if you think I am about to play this game with you. Got my shit and left. Ignored him all the way until now. He knows where I am now because he overheard our parents and decided to come along with his parents while they were here on a business trip. And so now here we are!

Brooklyn: Well that was a lot. I wasn't expecting all that lol. But just from the sound of it you really like him still because out of all of that you didn't dog him out besides at the time he slipped up with his guys. So what if it was a bet between him and his boys BUT now he is really liking you and wants to truly get to know you and see where it goes? Are you willing to give him that shot or you feel as though you can answer that after the conversation.

*Finished up our last bite of food*

Brooklyn goes on and says be careful sis call me after you all talk. I am probably going to fall asleep now that I am full and I don't have any more classes today.

Me: Okay sis! Talk to you later

When I began to walk off , I immediately called PJ because I wanted to see what he had to say. 

Me: Hey I promised I will call you so here I am! So what's up?  

Pj: I am so glad you kept your promise and called me ! 

I interrupted and said trust me I keep my word unlike you. But what's up though?

Pj: Alright you got me! But let me explain myself. I went back to what Aaliyah did and wrote you a four page letter. Now I can read this to you now or you can take it with you and read it after our conversation. 

I responded with Ill take it with me but I still want you to briefly tell me what's up because I have already been through enough with guys this semester and I really don't have time for any games PJ. I really liked you and in that instant it was gone because I thought you were feeling me the same way the whole time it was a game or a bet or however you and yours guys saw it. So I was hurt by it. 

Pj:OKAY! I know I hear you! All this letter is saying is I am sorry! Yes it was a bet we were playing but it turned out that I fell in love with everything about you! The way you love yourself! The way you take pride in your peace and the time you spend with loved ones and God. It's a resemblance of my parents' love! The moment you walked out I knew I made a big mistake and I knew it was going to be hard for you to hear me out. The small amount of time we spent together felt like I have known you for years and that you knew how to make me happy , you knew how to have fun, you liked me for me not just for my looks or the things I have or sex. You mean the world to me and I just want to make a different approach to show you who I really am. Fuck my friends I don't even hang out with them no more like that.

Me: Wow! Not to cut you off but I didn't know you felt this way about me, why wouldn't you say anything before? 

PJ: It was part of the bet

Me:UGH! 

PJ: Hear me out, just take the letter, read it and then we can pick up from here on Sunday before I leave. 

Me: Okay! Thank you for this time. It's clarifying for me. 

I called Brooklyn immediately and woke her ass up like a girl you would not believe this. We read the letter together and Brooklyn said girl that's your man go get him! He took his time and expressed his concern and love for this thing. I said you right sis ! 

Make it a long story short, PJ and I are taking it slow and seeing where this experience and the love he confessed in this four page letter goes.